Just an update for anyone that wonders where the hell I have been for the past couple months. I have been bouncing back and forth between siblings while I search for a job — and as I try to adapt to a new kind of life. The nest became empty overnight at the end of July. Spousal unit abandoned the 27 year marriage w/o real warning and took his income with him. I decided that it was better to move out of our rental home rather than to be evicted. That decision necessitated my sons having to move in w/ their dad……
The break-up was long overdue and though I have been struggling to keep afloat, I know that I am better off in the long run. It’s hard to redefine your purpose and goals when you have mostly been out of the working world as you work your ass off for years as a SAHM. I have had a few temporary *nanny* type gigs…. nothing permanent yet on the job front. Keep sending the positive vibes and prayers…. something has got to give.
I will say that I have been blessed as I take my little dog on my traveling road show. How bad can it be to be a guest in places like Oceanside (2 blocks from the beach), San Juan Capistrano and Mission Viejo?? It’s beautiful. It’s a treat to be able to go for walks in places like Dana Strand, Carlsbad and Salt Creek Beach beneath the Ritz Carlton Laguna Niguel. I have lacked for nothing. Still, there have been tears, frustration, anger and moments of extreme depression.
I haven’t had the access to the web that I had been accustomed to. I want to apologize to all my good friends ( you four know who you are… =P) whom I haven’t been in regular contact with lately. I miss you all…. people like Trop, Beth and Syd. I try to keep informed on what is going on in your world as much as I can. This is a season in my life and I know it will pass. Friendships are more important to me than possessions or money. I will know that my life is getting back on track again when I can renew my contacts with my friends on a basis that isn’t rushed or lacking in substance.
I want to say that the love of my life has sustained and encouraged me like no other. My love encourages me through all the crap and gives me real hope for the future. I do have a home…. it is located in the heart of my love. Love can sustain a soul… true love never fails and has the power to overcome all the trials and disappointments in the world.
9-11 is a day of reflection. It is a day to count our blessings as we learn to number our days. It is a huge reminder to take *nothing* for granted.
Pressing on…. KSW.